I am a 'typical' teenager...

I have insecurities; Many infact that get in the way of everything. They seem to really eat at my heart when I actually feel happy about myself and then suddenly insecurities come crawling right back in my brain and ruin any feeling of contentment with myself. UGH I HATE IT!

I have hopes and dreams. Some that are unreachable but I just can't help trying to make them reality.

I long for something that I don't have and it's killing me. Will I ever have it? Sometimes I wonder if God gets pleasure from seeing me wait and wait and wait for the moment he gives me what I've longed for. My fear is I'll NEVER get it...what am I saying??? HE  knowssssss what he's doing with  my life, but here I go again questioning God's judgement. I really need to not do that so much.

I'm constantly searching..for what you ask? I have NO idea.

I suffer from a severe case of growing pains. I remember dreaming when I was young of what it'd be like to be a mature and older 'big kid'. Here I am now remembering, not dreaming, of the good ol' days of being a careless little girl, with little to no responsibilities, and when it didn't matter to me about others lives and how I could help them, living day to day just for myself. Ohhh how I was a selfish and naive little girl. I do like being older, but somtimes I want to be younger so I won't have to face the painful and trying challenges and obstacles everyone faces through out the battle of life.

God I feel like I am being selfish,  I am just sitting here complaining when my life is no where as near awful, unbearable, dreadful, painful etc. etc. as other humans on this earth. You know what? I am grateful for all these feelings God gives me, they may feel awful right now but he knows what he's doing. Whether they're to help transform me, destroy me or what ever the case may be he's doing it for a reason. And I can only trust in him, and just try to understand why he does what he does. And I just remember, like the amazing Relient K song says...."REMEMBER, THE END WILL JUSTIFY THE PAIN IT TOOK TO GET US THERE"

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      You must become the change you want to see. That is a statement one can take to heart and become inspired to change the world. There are many people who often have much to say about what needs to be done to improve a situation but these same people fail at taking action and MAKING IT HAPPEN. There are also those that don’t understand what a powerful impact they could have on someone’s life and simply feel they could not do ANYTHING that could help others in their community. I believe if everyone in this world would become the change they would like to see it would be a much more accepting, tolerant, compassionate and peaceful world.

     There are many problems people face day to day that could be solved by a simple sign of compassion from a community member. Those who complain about having nothing to do, have on the contrary many opportunities of not ONLY occupying themselves but also helping others. There are various types of community service activities that can fulfill anyone’s interests. For instance those that are athletic could become a volunteer in the Special Olympics and could possibly become a partner of one of the participants. Or possibly one who enjoys working with children and is a great mentor could volunteer at a local school to tutor some struggling students. These are only a couple examples of what people could be doing instead of sitting around and being “bored”. Maybe they weren’t complaining about wanting to see a change happen, but once they experience the transformation in a person after working with them, they can realize how powerful a human being can be, by a simple act of compassion and kindness.

     If all the people in the world came together and quit the arguing and began to work together to improve the real problems, the world, as we know it would change for the better. Through simple acts of kindness and more action and less talk, people could make a difference in the various problems of the world we live in today.